Memory Registry

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Memories Received
Memories are arranged chronologically, despite the order in which she experiences them.

- Cross Academy: Night Class | Chapter 1 & 3 Her first memories after losing her memories
- Life | VKM Chapter 1 Meets Sayori for the first time
- Cross Academy: Night Class | Chapter 1 Cross Academy Information and an incident
- Quid Pro Quo | Chapter 17 A school dance is held at Cross Academy
- Vampire Soiree | Chapter 25 & 26 Passing out and Soiree shenanigans
- Accidental Encounters & The Enemy of the Pureblood | Chapter 53 & 54 Yuuki's introduction to Vampire Society
- Beyond the Doors | Chapter 61 Relationship problems with Kaname
- The Relationship with Zero | 73 Tempted by Yori and blood-drinking with Zero
- Those Who Possess Her Weapon | Chapter 81 Kaguya is shot by Zero...?
- Stars That Shine in Darkness | VKM Chapter 6 Laying down the law

Comments

Memory 11

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Memory Eleven
(Chapter 61)

Things to Note:

- All names are intact--!
- Thoughts will be heard or subbed so people know what she's thinking.

Summary:

- She's being punished. She doesn't remember what it is for yet, but of this she is sure. But she's anemic, to the point that she can't walk and her body is physically weak and she has the feeling that she was injured earlier. Her entire body feels like dead weight, and it feels heavy, and even lifting her hands is difficult. Furthermore, Kaname is unrelenting as he drinks deeply from her, his teeth leaving trails of blood all over her body

- She feels angry and helpless and upset all in one. Why are things like this? It's not the happily ever after she had once pictured. He praises her amid the punishment, telling her that because she hadn't drunk someone's blood... on that single part she had done great. The comment further frustrates her emotions, hand twitching as he bites her again. She feels breathless but manages a glare as he pulls up from her. And his comment only upsets her worse... commenting on the mortifying feeling of being powerless that she had already felt.

- Finally, she questions him, asking what it is that he wants her to be. He returned her weapon to her, apparently. Why did he do so...? What exactly is it that he wants her to be? He pats her head tenderly, like that of a child's, and tells her that she's fine just the way she is. It's just that... he only wanted her to realize that no matter how hard she tries, there are some things for which it will all come down to nothing. It's fatalistic and the feeling of uselessness washes over her anew. She questions him though. Why...? Why does everything he does and say sound as though all he has left in his heart is despair?

- She was gone...? Apparently so. She was gone for ten years, somehow or other, but she came back, so why is he like this? She just wants him to be like the kind brother she once knew. The one who was gentle... the one who had always loved and cared for her with the most innocent and tender of hearts. It's then that her eyes well up with tears and he bites and drinks from her anew.

- The truth... is that she's not enough for him. Isn't that right? The feeling chokes her. All of this... it's her fault, isn't it? He ends up countering her thoughts just slightly though, in the end. He's just frightened...and doesn't want her to give up her life for something meaningly.

Because he never wants to experience that again.

Commentary:

- Apparently, they were separated for ten years somehow
- No matter what she does, it isn't enough.
- Things are rough between the two of them...
- Apparently she had done something wrong and was punished as a result. But she has her weapon?
- Something in the past happened to Kaname.

Effects:

Not in the best frame of mind after this. It reinforces her feelings of uselessness and that no matter how hard she tries, it all comes down to nothing.