Day 296 - Evening; CW: Suicide attempt/themes

[sunflowering]

[Closing her eyes, Kaguya draws a breath, and simply allows the slightly cool air of the autumn evening to wash over her. It's so peaceful. On the roof of one of the many skyrises, the city below is quiet. It always is, with a lack of people and vehicles to fill their air with the usual noise that fills a city. Instead, she can genuinely hear the birds as the sun sets in the distance. With the beautiful view and the comfortable feeling on her skin, it feels bizarre to think that this is actually a prison. A somehow beautiful gelded cage. 

She can't allow herself to forget, however. After all, some of her dearest friends are still trapped inside it. ]

. . .

[ And yet, despite how many are still trapped, things keep spiraling out of her control, no matter what she does, huh. That's what it feels like, anyway. She can't help but wonder what Yusuke is doing now. His recent letter meant a lot to her. She wonders if he's been able to find any of his friends. It would be really nice... if he is able to find them. He's supposed to be allowed a wish after all, in the end.

Sometimes... you can't wait around any longer for your own turn though. If anything, she should have already taken care of this before now. It's just... she knew this would a drastic step.

She's sorry, Cypher. Right after getting everyone such a beautiful upgrade.

In her fingers, a parasol that she's been holding twirls as she stares at the ground below. It's so far away from this height. She supposes it should be. It took forever to climb the stairs all the way up to the top. Quietly, she closes her protection from the sun, and slips off her shoes, grabbing hold of a pole overlooking the ledge of the building after setting her cellphone down. It took all that time to climb up the stairs, and yet. . . it shouldn't take any time at all to reach the bottom. Even though the sun hasn't fully set yet, she can see the moon large and bright in the sky.

It's beautiful.]

月も見て我はこの世をかしく哉

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[420blazeit]

[ as soon as she reaches the shop she feels her heart start to race, its rhythmic thumping spurring on a severe wave of nausea, because the text messages they exchanged have her wondering if she noticed something a little bit too late. she exits using the balcony, snakes on a plane catching her and immediately taking off to comb tokyo-f for kaguya. ]

[ it takes longer than she would have liked, but she eventually catches sight of the colored parasol kaguya’s holding on the top of one of the city’s taller buildings. she doesn’t like this. she doesn’t like this at all. she dismisses her aibou, dropping down onto the building and staring at her back as her frown deepens. ]

Kaguya… hey nae sarang.

[sunflowering]

[ That's one thing she hadn't expected to hear. A voice from behind her. She whips around, eyes wide, like a deer caught in the headlights of a car. ]

Dva...? What are you--

[ Confusion is clear in her face, hands tightening on the pole at her side, before a vexed-- ]

Why are you here?

[420blazeit]

...for you, of course. [ she takes a single step closer to kaguya and then looks around the roof of the building and out into the city. it *is* beautiful from up here, and it would be a long way down, but she definitely thinks there are alternatives better suited to somebody like kaguya. she might think she's reached a dead end, but she's got so much to live for. ]

I wouldn't be here if I didn't care about you.

[sunflowering]

[ There's not really space for her to take a step back, but when she draws closer, Kaguya still stiffens, before recoiling back even just a little. ]

. . . I just want to be alone right now.

[420blazeit]

[ as soon as she notices she decides not to move any closer. at least for now. she doesn't want to force kaguya's hand... ]

I know. I read the messages, but I don't think you should be alone, is all, ...

And you don't have to talk if you don't want to, but... maybe you can listen, ..?